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I'm sitting here in the school library, waiting for my sister to get done with Volleyball practice. I already ran to Coolville Library, but they were closed. Then I was supposed to take my gradecard to the insurance company for my car ins., but I couldn't find it. Then I went to Niki's to see if any of my stuff is washed yet, and everything is still on the back porch. Her car is there and so is Linsee's, but no one is in the house. I'm betting that I know where they were, but I wasn't gonna take that trek (Know that I'm sayin', know what I'm sayin'? Probably not. lol). So I checked here for the book I want and they are ordering it for me. Oi.

Wanna know something really really sad? Nick got into trouble because of something his Dad figured out (curses!!!) and now he can't see me for 2 weeks. If he sees me, it's another 2 weeks or even more. (I have seen him twice, but don't tell anyone lol). We'll be able to go the fair together 3 days. One of which will be the 16th (Wed.) because it's our 8 month anniversary!  I can hardly believe it has been so long already! It's been, by far, the best 8 months of my life. But it is SO HARD to not be able to see him everyday. When we do, by chance, get to see eachother now, I can't help but run to him and jump in his arms. And we just stand there together for a few minutes, just holding eachother tight... I think that, if anything, being separated is only making us stronger and love eachother even more. *sigh* I can't even begin to tell you how much I love him.

I used to write poetry and stuff alot, but I hadn't for about a year. I figured out that I can only write like that when I am very unhappy, so I wrote the following the first day of his grounding. Here it is:

Without You

Without you, the bright sun's shine

holds no warmth for me.

And the twinkling of the night's stars

aren't reflected in my eyes.

Without you, a cleansing summer rain

only serves to drown me.

And the sight of a butterfly

makes me cry.

Without you, the sweet fragrance of a blossom

never reaches my nose.

And a baby's laughter

is bittersweet.

Without you, the beautiful things in life

mean nothing to me.

*sigh* Yeah, so lemme know what you think.

I am dealing with it a bit better now, especially since I saw him last night. He's at golf practice right now, and I haven't even talked to him yet today. Oh, he's also only allowed on the phone with me for half an hour a day. It sucks.

Seems like one of us is always getting into trouble doesn't it? lol

Shan and I went school-clothes shopping Monday. I didn't really need more clothes but I'm addicted. lol. Next paycheck, we're going for school supplies and crap.

I'm actually looking forward to starting school. One, I can see Nick every day again. And two, I'LL BE A SENIOR, BABY! Heck YES! I am EXCITED.

Well, Ima get off of here and comment other people and check MySpace.

Thanks so much for the comments everyone!

Lotsa lotsa love!!!

Kayla Arielle

Well hey there!

Things have much improved since that last (and first) post. Mom and Dad talked and they have dropped my grounding. Crazy. They never do that. But, of course, I am VERY happy about it! lol

Last night, Nick and I went with Shan & Bryan, Hannah & Jim, Niki, Linsee, and Alex M. to see fireworks in Parkersburg. We met Sarah W. & Mark, Ed & Danielle, and Shawn R. and his girlfriend, and Jeffrey and Eric K. and their gfs there.

The fireworks were great! I haven't seen professional fireworks since I was little. We have our own every year with my family down at the river, but it's just not quite the same. And it was just amazing to watch them with Nick. Turns out that ever since we were both little, we both always thought about how we couldn't wait till we were older and got to watch fireworks with the one we love. Sitting there with him last night, I was reminded again of how *blessed* I am to have him in my life. He is so amazing and I love him with all of my heart... *sigh*

But anyways... lol

Afterwards, we all went to this pizza place. They were closing though so we decided to be nice and just go somewhere else. This old Italian man was saying something in Italian at us I think. It seemed to me like he said "jack-ass" somewhere in there, but I'm not sure. lol.

We decided to go to McDonald's because someone said they were open 24/7. We got there and only their drive-thru was open. Same for Hardee's. And Wendy's. But we went through their drive-thru anyways. While Hannah and everyone was going through, Shan and I realized that we needed ketchup. So Nick ran back to the window to get some, and when the girl turned around and saw him, they said she jumped back like 4 feet. Lol. Also, while me and Nick and Shan and Bryan were ordering, Alex got out of Hannah's car and came to Bryan's... which was funny also. And we almost threw a bag of popcorn out the window to them when we were stopped at a light earlier, but we didn't cuz the light changed. ANYWAYS lol

We all sat outside at one of their tables and ate. Nick didn't like the chicken nuggets so he threw it at the building. And hit it. lol. I had told him not to, but it was funny. lol. When we left, Alex started running down the road for some reason... then came back. I dunno.

It was a really fun night though! I am SO GLAD I got to go!

I spent the night with Shan, and this morning we went shopping for her beach stuff. I am so good, I tell ya. She spent under what she had planned, got everything she needed, AND did it all in like half an hour less than we thought. If anyone needs a shopping guide for anything, lemme know. lol.

We almost got hit on the way home though when we were on her dirt road. It was scary. But it was "a rush!" lol. We gave each other high-fives when we realized we were alive... haha.

Better wrap this up, it's gettin' pretty long: I picked Nick up afterwards, came home, took him home, went to the Dairyette, got my new schedule, realized I DON'T work tomorrow like I thought, and realized I DO work Saturday. So, I'm not sure if that's good or bad but at least I get off at 9 Sat. Oh, then I got a flurry and came home.

Everyone don't forget to tell Beth HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

SeEeEeEeEEEeeeeEeEeee YyAaAaAAAAaaaAaa!!!!!!!!!!!

(hehe... you won't get that unless you're Shan, Bryan, or someone who hangs out with us all alot... But I still love ya!)

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Kayla*~.

Yes, I have returned.

I'd like to start my new xanga on a postivie note, but right now that looks impossible. Here's a little summing-up of what happened last night:

I was supposed to go to my family's campsite on the river near Forked Run, where my grandparents, aunts, cousins, and sister were camping.  After work, I decided to go to The Crib for a bit, then took Nick home, then went to the river. I was supposed to call my parents when I got there to let them know I was ok. Apparently I didn't call them soon enough, and when I got to the river, Mom was there. I had to go home, get yelled at, and am now not allowed to drive until I'm 18, according to my Dad.

I know I shouldn't have done what I did, but I don't deserve to have my whole summer, or even my weekend, ruined for it. I've been planning this weekend since like January, and now it's all ruined. No fireworks- not even with my family. And Nick was going to come. And the fireworks they're putting on are supposed to be awesome this year. And Shannie and Bryan can't come. And no fireworks tonight in Rutland with the girls. And no fireworks in Parkersburg with Shan Tuesday. It's a bunch of shit.

I'm going to do all I can to get out of here by tomorrow night. But what really doesn't help is that my car is down at the river still because my gas light was on and no place was open at 11:45 at night. Maybe that will help though because we'll have to go get it. I dunno, but if we parents are nice at all they need to let me go watch fireworks with my family tomorrow. I don't know what I'll do if they don't, but I'll be pissed beyond wording.

I know I made a mistake, and it will never happen again, but, truly, this is not fair.

Sorry if you're offended by any "language" I've used. But fyi, for this xanga- my xanga- I will say what I want and will not have people reprimanding me for it. Just know and remember that. I will keep it as clean as I can.

Man it feels good to write again.

Thanks for taking time to read this! Please add me and leave me some comments.

Love you guys a lot!!!

Kayla